You may be there now. Sin may have taken you far from God. Circumstances may be conspiring to hold you hostage from the fellowship of God's people. This is a description of spiritual depression.
A Questioning Soul (vv. 2, 9)
"When shall I come and appear before God?" "Why have you forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?"
This believer wants to know, in verse 2, when he will come before God. He is so far away from the House of the Lord, he doesn't know if he will ever get back. This is the Holy Spirit's revelation of the intense internal struggle of this believer.
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A Weeping Soul (v.3)
He speaks of his "tears [having been his] food day and night." There are times when we cry like Joseph in Egypt. We feel a long way from home, a long way from where we want to be. Tears are sacraments, revealing the inner places of the heart. Paul says that there are times when we pray with groanings that cannot be put into language.
An Accusing Voice (vv. 3 and 10)
Note that we see the voice of accusation, "Where is your God?" in verse 3b and again in verse 10 and the Psalmist himself cries out and asks, "Why have you forsaken me?" Some may be here today who feel like that. You say, "I must not be a good example of a Christian, for look at my tears and look at my condition!" This was the case with Job's friends, who accused him. In Job 18.21, Bildad associates Jobs predicament with an unbeliever: "Surely such are the dwellings of the wicked, and this is the place of him who does not know God." This sounds like a smug Christian who cannot reconcile faith and suffering, trust in God with a spiritual depression brought on by tragedy. Job replies with all of us, "How long will you torment my soul, and break me in pieces with words?" WE know that Satan is an accuser of the saints, but sometimes even Christians can become unwitting agents of accusation.
Remorse (v. 4)
The Psalmist remembers (in verse 4) the old days of worshipping in the Temple, of joy and praise, and of a pilgrim feast. The condition of spiritual depression may, then, be seen in this loitering with memories. These were good memories, but you see even good things can become painful when they are taken from you. I used to speak with a lady who lost a son in a tragic accident. She spoke of good times, but those were painful to her and understandably so, for they are gone. Sometime we weep for memories of times no longer available to us.